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freelancenerve
26 July 2010 @ 06:02 pm
Epiphany today:


Noninterference of the individual in meeting his/her needs so long as they follow the law is a hallmark of western society. It makes us the most resource intensive kind of people in the world. Western society is completely and totally inconsistent with a truly good environmental policy since a good environmental policy is going to.

Environmentalism will make us into a much more role-driven moralistic society in the end as the avenues to happiness through excess consumption will disappear.

this is, of course, assuming that TRUE environmentalism, preserving the environment as it stands, is what we want. Perhaps western style individualism and innovation will be able to merge successfully with environmentalism by fostering biodiversity through human action and responsibility.


you certainly see the beginnings of it in all the farms around here.
 
 
freelancenerve
26 July 2010 @ 05:41 pm
I don't believe in equality.



I know that's not a popular thing to say around here, but I just don't believe in it. It's not that I don't believe in tolerance or compassion or understanding. But I just think that it's a fantasy to think that everyone is the same or should be treated the same way. And yes, this applies to


On the same note, I don't believe you can do something and not hurt someone else. Many people in my life have commented that as long as you don't hurt someone else, it's ok. right? But this isn't true. Even if something only affects yourself, unless you are very unlucky, you are bound to be affecting the people who love and care about you (and conversely, also the people who hate your guts). And I think it's a rare action indeed that can be shown not to affect other people.
 
 
freelancenerve
24 June 2010 @ 11:47 am
I may have my limitations- but I can still hold down a job.

I can still make friends.

I can still manage my own life


I may not get everything, may not win everytime, but I still have power and I'm going to be damned if I give the fuck up. I am not going to let my enemies win without a fight. I'm not a criminal and for that reason, they can't ever get rid of me.



I need to write this shit down occassionally.
 
 
freelancenerve
25 May 2010 @ 10:35 am
today I woke up with the peppiest song my brain made up about long island.
 
 
freelancenerve
06 May 2010 @ 08:00 pm
I used to somehow think that if I could just know enough about something, that everything would fall into place. I know this now to be an extremely untenable position to hold most of the time. While conceptually understanding a situation may help, it doesn't always translate into the kind of advantage that I have always assumed it would. Here's why I think this is true:

1. No matter how much you actually know. You will never know enough to completely explain what's happening. (although you may delude yourself into believing such.)

2. Logic works when you have all the relevant facts. You rarely have all the relevant facts and how would you know if you did?

3. What you know may just explain present phenomena, not predict future phenomena.

4. A complete conceptual understanding does not translate into effective action.

5. Some of what you may know may be wrong.
 
 
 
freelancenerve
22 April 2010 @ 10:42 am
I read about modern theories about the origin of life today and something jumped out at me:


THEY THINK IT STARTED IN HYDROTHERMAL VENTS


They also thought that metabolism started before anything else. perhaps a primitive form of the citric acid cycle. But this pales in comparison to the revelation about vents.

Why?

Because most of the life we see and consider important around us is not powered by the geothermal power of the earth's core. We are powered by the SUN.

Which means that life first evolved using primarily energy from the earth's core and THEN subsequently developed the ability to utilize energy from the sun to power itself.

This kind of blows my mind since I've always thought of the sun as so central to life. But, actually, although the sun may have helped in some way by heating up the earth enough for water to develop providing a nice medium for the mixing of hot magma. life didn't need it to develop:


Nope. We didn't need it.

What?! WHAT?!

This is so huge. It is like finding out your father is not your biological father. The huge glaring object that sustains us is not our origin.


If this doesn't make you think that something life-like or pre-life like could be present in the area surrounding any energy radiating body than you certainly do not think like me, because that's what I'm thinking right now.
 
 
freelancenerve
16 April 2010 @ 11:03 am
The world is so beautiful and terrible.


Creations yet unmade, new forms of order yet to be birthed, shimmer in the distance of my mind like dragons and viruses.

dragons and viruses, what shall eat us next?

So many humans around talk about how we have divorced ourselves from the natural world. Become artificial and unnatural; made an endless string of uniform McDonalds and Walmarts and straight rows of corn sprayed with manmade chemicals to help them grow big. They say it can't last forever and they are right. But they imagine a world of harmony with nature and . There is no harmony of nature. What we call the unnatural mirrors the natural. We have only to look within ourselves and see the similarity between the hydrogen-ATP pump embedded in the inner walls of our mitochrondria and a diesel engine to see that life is order and order is life; what we do is just a different kind, a different breed of strategy than all the other life forms.

We were lucky, we found a new way of being, a new complexity yet undiscovered in nature and we exploded into the world killing and eating everything in our wake. The ultimate

No empire lasts forever though, no species can remain dominant forever. We can already see the . Our previous strategies of sucking every ecosystem dry with greater efficiency has limits. We are the greatest natural disaster to befall the other lifeforms of this earth in a long time. But the earth has weathered disasters before,



Shall nothing kill us and shall we continue the process of eating and poisoning the entire world till nothing is left? Yeast will continue to multiply within a barrel of grape juice, eating sugar and excreting ethanol until there is no more sugar and all the yeast starve to death, bathed in their own excrement. Are we smarter than yeast? Is this how we shall end?




A thought occurred to me the other day that if you start to become less antropocentric and start considering us just another animal, you start wondering whether any other animal has developed technology like ours. I'm reminded of watching Al Gore showing a graph representing the path of the climate as determined by scientists. We've had it good, the climate has been unbelievably stable- could this be one of the reasons civilization has emerged in the last thousand years and not earlier???? But the climate won't remain stable for long. Can civilization survive it?

I remember reading a book by my mother once that said that the pyramids were built BEFORE egyptian. Sometimes hacks have something important to say. He said that there was a civilization preceding our own that developed and fell and the pyramids and certain structures in south america were proof. They could not even have been built by current technology which makes us think that perhaps a civilization had developed that had different technology. He claimed that a change in the climate precipitated such an event. It was horribly interesting stuff.


So, maybe civilization is more cyclic than we have thought. Perhaps we rise and then fall. It wouldn't surprise me. Booms and busts happen all the time. In nature, in economics, in our personal lives. Maybe we'll collapse and a remnant will survive to start over another time.

I guess we shall see.
 
 
freelancenerve
There is a sheet of paper hanging on my wall.

On it are the things I must do before I can open this computer to which I am o-so-addicted to.

they are

-brush and floss my teeth
-check and make my to do list
-exercise


The reasons they are up there are good I think and reflect the fact that I 1. consistently forget/don't do these things and 2. would benefit greatly if I did them.

I figure that if something is truly truly pressing than I will do it and not do the things on my list, but most of the time, I think it makes sense since if I don't have the time to take care of my body and have a modicum of tracking of all the things I need to do-than I really don't have enough time to be on this computer indulging in self-sustaining limbic system gymnastics.


and that is that.



I also started up my ADHD support group today!!! it's been in the making for months now and I need to promote and advertise it, but I really think that it's going to be great! I know I need it and I'm sure others will benefit as well. So, if you know anyone struggling with ADD there is now a support group in greenfield from 4:00 to 5:15 on federal street.

You people in the greater DC region or maybe upper state New York especially-:p
 
 
freelancenerve
16 February 2010 @ 01:41 pm
years and years ago, my mother showed me my first film about climate change, poverty and the real state of the world and how things really happen. It scared me so much that I had nightmares for a month.


Now, I'm still scared, I'm still having nightmares. but I want to start doing things to make it better. I'm not sure what I can do. I'm scared that's there is a lot I can do but am not.
 
 
freelancenerve
18 January 2010 @ 09:24 pm
I want to thank Rafi for his advice the other day.

It really helped! getting off my duff and doing some of the mundanities of life was extremely good for me. I forget how important getting shit done is for my mental health.


still sick though after an exhausting weekend. I'm going to t ry to go to the doctor's soon to get this checked out. The time for antibiotics may be nigh...